By Oyindamola Shoola
I am a child who never had undiluted love
Love for me was the sneaky apologies
that my single-parent mother whispered in
“Have you eaten?”
or “Try this dress and tell me if it fits you.”
So, forgive me when I question your blatant
“I love you” professed in random moments.
Forgive me if I don’t know how to say it back;
I am learning.
Forgive me if I ask if you love me
after we just made love
or randomly while eating breakfast.
Or instead of forgiving me like
my desire for love’s certainty is a sin, assure me.
Tell me you love me a thousand times,
if I ask a thousand times.
And if I say “Darling, have you eaten?”
Tell me you love me.
Oyindamola Shoola is a writer, author, and feminist. She is also the Co-founder of SprinNG, a non-profit organization dedicated to supporting Nigerian writers.
Oyindamola graduated from Bronx Community College in 2017 and the New York University in 2020 with a Bachelor’s Degree in Organizational Behavior and Change.
An award-winning leader, writer, and student (of life) – she coaches others to enhance their career development and academic success experiences.